I'm reading about Zen. "Reading Zen" is a koan, since one cannot read meditation into the bones. But I'm book-centric, and word-needy, and I have to start somewhere. I'm reading Suzuki's Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind.
"We should appreciate what we are doing. There is no preparation for something else."
"If we are like a frog we are always ourselves."
So I practiced not preparing for something else, for a second. It was a freeing, terrible second, and awesome in the original sense of awe.
Then I tried to be a frog. My pyramid shape, the weight of me, my goggle eyes. I sat like a frog while I watched So You Think You Can Dance, eyeing the contestants, my tongue licking out occasionally at a bowl of vanilla ice cream. That's the closest I've been to Nirvana.